My depth is a lot deeper than most people have ever been even if they swam to the middle of the ocean

Pierce me!
i've already been stabbed.
my voice has been snatched
my spirit has been grabbed.

pierce me!
im already a walking wound
for my heart is bleeding invisible blood
and its assaultant is in a tomb.

pierce me!
somebody make me bleed for real
my face is a million masks
and im so numb i can't feel

pierce me
the quicker, the better
the redder, the wetter
just quickly please
i want to bleed beyond my invisibility
i wanna creep out and show some sensitivity
i can no longer hide behind this p… Continue

Today is the one year anniversary of my dad's death... I miss him. He's not here for me to get mad at anymore. I can't hear his voice...see his face...nothing. And im sad... i dont know how else to feel. its just like ive been sittin here wondering where the hell has a whole year gone. I know i thought about him everyday but it just doesnt seem like its been a whole year. it still feels fresh... on top of things, my ex wants to be here... i can't let him becauase ill go back to him. and thats no… Continue

This feeling inside of me
I don't know how to control it
It's a beast and the new me won't
feed the monster.


Ya'll don't understand.
The new me won't let me feed
the monster.
I gotta feed the the monster.


I've got so much anger and its food
for the person inside.
And she's screaming to get out
she needs to rectify all of the situations.


But I've turned a new leaf and
I can't feed the monster.
I've gotta contain it.
Gotta have her gagged and bound.


But I gotta feed the monster... one day

She has no idea how it feels to love someone, try, make up excuses and lies only to keep your sanity. She has no idea why I'm so moody or why I keep it movin when something pisses me off. I don't have time for it. My world is so big but yet sooo small. I include everyone, but i dont include anyone.
There was this guy that I loved...apparently more than i thought. He broke some promises... i broke one big promise. Stupidly I promised I wouldn't leave but i was young and stupid. I thought that I w… Continue

IM so fuckin tired of being nice. The people you think aren't supposed to say hurtful shit do. im done smiling and puttin up with bullshit just cuz people know im nice and won't say shit. im done! I'm tired of being reasonable and understanding when people don't even listen So fuck it! i'm so done and they can all kiss my black ass!